Chapter 646 Psychologist
"I've lived too long!"
Peg Evelyn's voice was sharp:
"I have lived for too long! I have experienced too many years, seen too many people, and too many things, but I am increasingly unable to forget the wrong things I have done!"
"When I was in school, I had a birthday party with my close classmates."
"At that time, we were all in boarding school, and we didn't have much pocket money. I hadn't awakened my contract ability at that time, and we didn't have much money. Our group of friends all pooled money together to give each friend a living.
It’s my birthday. In order to save money, I pretended to have changed the wrong money when I was raising funds, and gave the friend twenty copper dollars less, just so that I could spend twenty less copper dollars.”
"As if he was worried about his friend's face, the friend I overcharged didn't expose my greed for taking advantage, and just smiled and took the change I gave him."
"I knew at that time that he must have discovered it, but he didn't say anything. He smiled and patted me on the shoulder."
"Friendship will grow as time goes by. This little thing of only twenty copper dollars becomes more and more clear like a brand."
"But I can never undo this matter, and I can never undo the regrets of taking advantage of myself. Even if I become a contractor and can turn back time to a certain extent, but... I can never change the fact that I was there.
——I am a person who is greedy for petty gains and cheats my friends!"
Moon Shadow Peg Evelyn’s voice became shriller:
"Although it's just a trivial thing, it makes me uncontrollably painful every time I recall it. My annoyance is getting worse, and my pain is getting worse. As I recall this incident,
The more and more times this incident happened, the little annoyance it caused seemed to spread, making it impossible for me to face it anymore.”
"I'm ashamed of myself."
"Can you understand?"
"Understood!" Mo Zhi tried his best to keep his tone calm and replied slowly.
Peg Evelin smiled a little miserably, showing a few remaining teeth:
"Who could have known that a trivial matter of just twenty copper dollars would make me so upset that I couldn't face myself like this in the years to come!"
"Can you understand? No, you don't understand. You will only think that I am a lunatic who is struggling for just twenty copper dollars."
Unpredictable waved his hand to interrupt what she was saying, and expressed his understanding: "Although it is only twenty copper dollars, it has made you lose your character. Every time you think about it, you will feel regretful for your original mistake."
"What makes you even more painful is that although you have the ability to turn back time, you are unable to correct your original mistakes. This little bit of annoyance has gradually turned into an inner demon that you cannot face."
"Yes, it can't be changed, it can't be changed." Peg Evelin's voice became a little sharper, and her eyes seemed a little bloodshot.
"Why, why did I do such a thing in the first place and leave such a shameful regret?"
Regret is unpredictable, and I feel that I really understand Peg Evelyn's emotional obsession at this time. The point of regret is not the size of the matter, but the inability to change it.
A small mistake, a small regret, will gradually take root and form a regretful past.
This is a bit like what Taoists say: contaminated with cause and effect, the cutting is endless and the reasoning remains chaotic.
Peg Evelyn's body gradually trembled:
"Also. And more."
"When I was a girl, I was close to my neighbor's brother. We were childhood sweethearts."
"His family is well off, and he has always liked me. Even his parents seem to be very satisfied with me and want us to be together in the future."
"Even later, his whole family moved to the city and we were no longer neighbors. His parents often took him back to his hometown to meet my family, get together with the parents on both sides, and get along like friends."
"His parents also took good care of me. After I was admitted to college, when I came home during the winter vacation, because they lived in the city at the time, his parents drove to the station and picked me up first.
Home, let us get along with each other for a few days after the hospitality, and then send me back to my hometown."
"This is all a favor." Peg Evelin let out a long sigh in her throat, her hazy eyes penetrated the void, recalling the scene that year:
"But, I was ignorant back then. When he joked with me again and asked me if I would consider marrying him in the future, I, who didn't know anything, actually said it rightly in front of him and his parents.
He said he was too ugly. Too ugly!"
"Even if I die, I don't want to marry you!"
When Mu Zhi heard this, he felt like his eyebrows wanted to jump in a state of nothingness.
"Now that I think about it, I'm totally missing a chord." Peg Evelin's tone rose again:
"I was so stupid that I couldn't look at myself! I rejected him so unsubtly and cruelly! And it was in front of his parents!"
"I could have used a softer approach. Even if I didn't want to, I could have said it more tactfully. But, I don't know why, I only had such a stubborn mind at that time and chose the worst approach!"
"Actually, I was really too young at that time, and I wasn't sure whether I liked him. He was not ugly at all, tall and thin, and he had a good family background, and he also had feelings for me.
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"If I could understand the so-called love earlier, if I could be more mature and truly understand whether I have him in my heart, maybe. I mean maybe, I would agree to him, and I might actually become his bride.
!”
"I don't even know what I rejected because of a stupid reply. Until many years later, until now, I still think about the original possible alternative. If I really married him, I should
You will be very happy."
"That way, I will live a peaceful and happy life, and even be too peaceful to awaken and become a contractor, and just live a fulfilling and beautiful life."
"Unpredictable, can you understand?"
Mozhi nodded slightly.
"This is also a small thing. But to this day, one hundred and fifty years later, whenever I think of my silly reply, I still feel embarrassed." Peg Evelyn used her skinny arms to support her. The ground, struggling to stand up from the ground:
"I hurt him, hurt his family, and ended a potentially beautiful love in such a cruel way!"
"Just because of that sentence! A sentence that makes me feel extremely stupid even when I think about it now. Even for the rest of my life, I didn't dare to recall the embarrassment I felt at the time, and I didn't dare to think of him again."
"I feel guilty for him. Obviously, he is so kind, and his parents are so good to me, but I... Hey, it's irreversible, it's also irreversible. Even if I have the ability to turn back time, I can't. Change the original facts!”
Peg Evelin seemed to be in high spirits, and her whole body was shaking violently:
"It's the little things like this, the little things that make me regretful, that make me form situations that I can't face, and magnify my regrets. This is my emotional obsession."
"I have lived for too long, and the regrets and stupidities of the past hurt me deeply, making me increasingly unable to face, control, and face it."
"Iron God! He gave me the ability to turn back time, but I can never go back to the beginning, change my stupidity, and make up for the wrong things I have done!"
The bone-piercing talisman suddenly spread from Peg Evelin's body, and there was a faint tendency to explode.
In the entire space of consciousness, countless scenes of light and shadow playback appeared again, and the content inside was played rapidly as if in fast forward.
These are the memories of Peg Evelyn, each one similar to the "little things" she just mentioned. These little regrets seem to be gradually hurting Peg Evelin as time goes by. Fulin's heart made her madness intensify.
Mo Zhi understands that this is the critical point where emotional obsession breaks out.
Moon Shadow Peg Evelyn has the contract ability to control time, but she cannot change the regretful facts in the past.
The strange connection between emotional obsession and contract ability, I feel like I have a glimmer of understanding, but I can't think much about it.
Because, the Peg Evelyn in front of me is going crazy!
He has seen the patriarch of the Megan family go crazy and die in front of him, but now, it is completely different from that time - Yueying is a Qing-level!
After the crazy explosion, the entire Huanhe Temple will definitely be razed to the ground.
what to do?
Unpredictable strives to calm himself and manipulate the few sources of symbols in his consciousness.
Yueying's emotional obsession is ultimately "regret", regret for the stupid things she has done in the past!
Who would have thought that seemingly trivial things can actually cause permanent psychological trauma in people, so that the wounds get bigger and bigger, until they are finally unable to face it!
Unpredictable wanted to try his own way of controlling memory, using his contract ability to delete those regretful images that Peg Evelin didn't want to recall.
However, he quickly rejected this idea because he had too many memories!
It is impossible to delete them all right now! Even if it can be deleted, it is impossible for the green-level boss to completely forget these embarrassing memories. After all, the suppression of the level exists, and his ability cannot produce the best deletion effect.
In front of her eyes, Peg Evelin's body seemed to be expanding, and the symbols in her consciousness gradually propped up her originally thin skin, causing her to roar.
"Ah~~~~"
"Ah~~~ah~~~ah~~~"
She worked hard to adjust her body posture, keeping her blood-red eyes focused on the unpredictable.
"You run away."
Escape! I really want to escape! But how? I want to curse in my heart, but I still control myself from swearing. Who knows if this will advance the upcoming crazy explosion?
etc.
At this moment, Mo Su's heart suddenly moved.
let me escape
Does this mean that Moon Shadow Peg Evelyn still has normal thinking and consciousness?
Is it just because of crazy obsession that is overturning the original reason?
Is this how emotional obsession works?
Is this because the conscious body swallowed a mouthful of saliva that did not exist and thought rapidly in the brain.
Yes! This is similar to. To put it simply, the mentality is broken!
This is a psychological problem!
And I, the nightmare in my heart, is the representative of manipulating people's hearts.
The two little things that Moon Shadow Peg Evelyn told about, which made her annoyed, made her regretful, and made her unable to face the psychological trauma, were actually because she had normal and rational thinking and had enough growth.
Only then will you realize your original stupidity.
This is like many people looking back at the novel they loved so much ten years ago, only to find that they can no longer read it, because the novel they once loved is so mediocre in today's eyes, so embarrassing, and can never be read again.
The feeling of pleasure I felt when I read that novel when I was young.
People are always growing, and childhood ambrosia is often the poison of adulthood. Peg Evelyn must have been embarrassed by the childish things she did when she was young and immature.
This is the truth, but it means a very crucial point - Peg Evelyn is thinking about problems from a mature perspective. She can realize her original mistakes precisely because she has reason and has always maintained her reason.
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Reason is the best medicine against madness. Even when she is about to go crazy, she still has reason. From this perspective, she feels regretful for her past self. This is how her emotional obsessions get out of control.
Mozhi took a deep breath.
Just now, in the conversation just now, Yueying seemed to have regained his senses and regained control of his mentality for a short period of time, even when he said that he had many "regrets".
It should be empathy that made her feel that I also had those regrets, those experiences that I couldn't face, so that my psychology temporarily regained balance.
Treating a dead horse as a live doctor! You can only give it a try!
Unpredictable suddenly raised his head and shouted to Peg Evelin, whose body had begun to swell:
"nobody is perfect!"
"nobody is perfect!"
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These three sounds wrapped up the symbol source and resounded throughout the entire consciousness space.
Three blasts in a row to ensure that Peg Evelyn, who still retains the last trace of sanity, could hear it.
Sure enough, Peg Evelin seemed to hear the unpredictable shouting, and there was a trace of hesitation in her blood-red eyes.
Unpredictability strikes while the iron is hot:
"No one is perfect! Everyone has times when they are childish and ridiculous, and they all have immature personalities. This is the price of growth!"
"No one has wise thinking or a sound personality since birth, let alone a flawless experience without any regrets!"
"Lord Yueying, do you understand?!"
These few words made Peg Evelin's swelling body come to a standstill.
Her blood-red eyes only stared at the unknown, but the focus seemed to be gone, as if she was trapped in some kind of cycle of self-doubt.
Seeing that it was effective, unpredictable quickly organized the language, and at the same time looked for the way his sister Luo Sheng was doing psychological counseling for clients, and imitated a more approachable but calm voice:
"There is indeed only one life, and every experience is a choice. Even most choices only have one chance. No matter how hard we try, we cannot change the original choice. Human beings are the accumulation of such choices.
body!"
"However, there are always times when we are immature, there are always times when we make wrong choices, and there are always times when we will bring regrets to the future. But, it is not just you, Lord Yueying, in fact, all people will have regrets of this kind and that.
It is something we cannot avoid, let alone get rid of.”
"Some people regret for the rest of their lives because they have lost important relatives, some people deeply blame themselves for missing opportunities, and some people are ashamed and upset because they are ashamed of others, but these mistakes are an integral part of life!"
"It is precisely because of these regrets that our existence is more meaningful! We can recall these regrets and make the future more perfect."
"If a person's experience is perfect without any regrets, Lord Yueying, don't you think this is terrible? A perfect person. What is the meaning of his existence? Looking back on the flawless experiences in the past, what else can he imagine?
future?"
"Those things you regret are the precious treasures of you, Moon Shadow Priest Peg Evelyn. Since you can't change the facts of the past, why not learn from them? By the way, Lord Moon Shadow, you have already realized the things that made you sad in the past.
The stupidity that you can't face up to, doesn't it mean that you are more rational and mature than you were then?"
A trace of clarity seemed to have returned to Peg Evelyn's blood-red eyes. She no longer stared at the unpredictable, but was thinking in trance.
At the same time, the swollen symbols on her body were dissipating
She murmured to herself:
"Everyone has regrets."
"Everyone has an unforgettable experience."
"Everyone is stupid sometimes."
“Imperfection is what it is”
"What is the meaning of existence?"
This chapter has been completed!