Li Huowang clung to the iron window bars with both hands, staring blankly at the patients outside and their strange behaviors.
He thought for a long time, and finally opened his mouth with a slight trembling and said to himself: "Are they all hallucinations? Am I really mentally ill all along?"
"You just found out?!" Yi Donglai's suppressed angry voice came from behind.
"Before that, you killed people, you climbed on the fence, and you dug out your own eyeballs while alive. Do you think you are normal people?"
Li Huowang's expression gradually turned ferocious, and his hands had veins bulging out as he clung to the iron fence. "There are definite reasons why I do those things!"
"Which psychopath kills and hurts others without a reason? But this reason is only suitable for your mind! It is not suitable for the outside world!"
Li Huowang couldn't bear it any longer. He turned around and glared at his attending doctor, Yi Donglai, "Why are you so anxious?! I'm the one who's sick now! Why are you so anxious!"
"I'm not in a hurry? Can I be in a hurry? Do you know what it means to me after your accident?" Yi Donglai stood up angrily.
"This means that my paper has been withdrawn, and it means that I have no way to get promoted! It means that I have made a big fool of myself and been laughed at by my colleagues! I even accepted an interview before! Talking about your treatment process in front of the TV!"
"If you can't get better now, then my life is over! I can't accept this result!"
After Yi Dong finished speaking, he sat down again, closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and began to adjust his mentality.
When he opened his eyes again, he saw Li Huowang's one eye very close at hand, staring straight at him.
"Yi Donglai, what do you mean by this? What kind of projection are you? Why do my changes affect you?"
"Ahhh!" He made fists with both hands and slammed the table hard. Yi Donglai's calm mood suddenly became chaotic again.
"Look at him! I'm going to wash my face!" As Yi Donglai slammed the door shut, Li Huowang followed the nurse and stared at him.
Li Huowang stopped looking at him, turned around and continued to look at the barbed wire fence outside and Gao Jinyun next to the barbed wire fence.
"Am I really mentally ill? Then why is it so real? Sure enough, they are all real, so which of the things I saw before are real? And which of them are hallucinations?"
All the memories of the past began to become unstable in his mind.
Li Huowang, with a struggling expression, stood there thinking about this problem and Yi Dong's return.
After washing his face with cold water several times, Yi Donglai sat down again and saw Li Huowang sitting upright in front of him, with his hands on his knees.
"What are you doing?"
"Aren't I suffering from mental illness? Aren't you my attending doctor? What else can I do? Of course, if you are sick, you must treat me."
Yi Donglai held his chin and looked at Li Huowang with a frown, wondering what this guy was trying to do.
He always thought he knew Li Huowang very well, but now he realized that he didn't know him at all.
However, Li Huowang didn't want to do anything. He really just wanted to cure his illness. Since he was really sick, he really should be treated.
And since Qing Wanglai has completely given up on himself, the only one who can save him is himself.
As long as the mental illness is cured, he can go out, and then he can go to Qingwang to settle the general accounts and why he was not there during the previous Siming War.
"Are you sure? Are you really sure you will fully cooperate with my treatment from now on?"
"Of course, do you still need to ask? I also want to get better as soon as possible." Li Huowang said very naturally.
Yi Donglai shook his head with a chuckle, "I really didn't see it."
"Tsk, Yi Donglai, what do you mean? Treat it quickly. The previous treatment method is quite good."
"No rush." Yi Donglai pulled the stool forward, "Let's sort things out first. What did you just say I was a projection of?"
"I remember you told me this before, can you repeat it now?"
"No, no, no." Li Huowang shook his head. "You don't have to worry about this. You just need to cure the hallucination."
Yi Donglai looked at him with a frown. "So, you think you only need to treat hallucinations? And the previous projections were all real? Haven't you considered that this so-called projection may also be your hallucination?
One of them?"
Li Huowang sat there with his brows furrowed. Five minutes later, he raised his head and looked at Yi Donglai, "You mean, Qing Wanglai lied to me from the beginning?"
"No, what I mean is that Qingwang Lai might also be your hallucination. You should know what the definition of delusion is, right? A false belief that is irrational, inconsistent with reality and impossible to realize but firmly believed in!"
"I treated a patient in the past. He was on the street, and another little girl glanced at him accidentally. He felt that the other girl liked him. No matter whether the other girl cursed, disgusted or even beat him, he was extremely firm in this idea."
"When the other person hits and scolds him, he will explain himself, thinking that the beating is kissing and scolding, which is love. The other person cries and begs him to leave. He thinks it is the little girl playing hard to get at him. No matter what the other person does, he can misinterpret it in his thinking.
Make it your own meaning."
"Now your situation is worse than him. You still have hallucinations. You may even misinterpret what the hallucinations said again."
"I know that you may have your own weird but very stable world view now, and you are very sure of it."
"But your world view itself is an extreme delusion. It's the same as the patient who thinks other women love him. In fact, other girls can't like him no matter what. He's fifty-six years old and his fingers are still broken.
Three times later, my mouth is still crooked."
"No, no, no, maybe Qing Wanglai may have lied to me! But they are all true! It's absolutely true!"
"Is it absolutely true? Who can prove it? Just rely on yourself?"
"Nana!" Li Huowang suddenly raised his head, "Nana came with me at the beginning!"
"What do you mean, let me ask another mentally ill person to understand the delusions in your mind?"
"Can you let Yang Na go? Haven't you done enough harm to her?"
While Li Huowang was being treated, a guarded nurse on one side said to a colleague on the other side: "I heard that the last doctor who treated this guy went crazy and was sent to a mental hospital. I see, if this continues, Doctor Yi is afraid
He’s also going crazy.”
"Let me tell you, Dr. Yi shouldn't have accepted this hot potato. He has been ordered to die from above. Regardless of whether he is cured or not, he will probably have to live here for the rest of his life."
"This should have been done a long time ago. He killed so many people last time, and I think it would be too hasty to let him go. If he leaves such a time bomb hanging outside, isn't this taking the lives of ordinary people as a joke?"
This chapter has been completed!